If I could take one thing back in my life it would be how I treated my parents. I treated them like crap. I feel very bad for some of the things I told them. I was doing drugs most of the time. If I wasn’t on drugs, I was on a hang over, or coming down off of something. My mom told me that when I moved out I sent her some emails. She kept those emails and told me that she would never delete them. I read those when I was clean and I felt sick to my stomach. I do not even remember sending them. I see tears in her eyes when she reads over those again.
I have made my dad so mad at me. My dad just cares about me a little too much. He is always trying to look after me. I barley get to see him too. He lives in Bountiful and we live in Spanish Fork. Whenever he came down to spend time with the family, I would tell him to screw off. Then I would go hang out with all my friends. I told all my friends that he was not my real dad.
Now I tell my mom and dad I love them every chance I get. I love them to death and I never want to hurt them again. I am going to live in their basement until I am thirty. I am going to do this to make up for the lost years. I respect them now. I live a totally different life now. I have a better life.
Jen
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I completly understand I treat my mom like crap all the time. I feel really bad about it. I do say my dad is not my dad but thats because my dad is never there for me.
-kirra
Jen,
I can’t relate directly to your problem, because I never did drugs, however I was also very mean to my mother. I used to scream at her because she would never let me do anything. i.e. partying/staying out late. My mom was very strict. And I was her only child, so it was even worse. I thought she was just the meanest mom ever and I would tell her I hated her like on a daily basis. Things got really bad for a while because I would sneak around and she would find out and ground me, and things like that. My point is, that my mom and me really but heads. But recently, I found out that she adopted me at birth because my birth mother was a drug addict who was gong to abort me. It made me open my eyes and realize how selfish I had been. My mother is my angel, and I would do anything in this world for her. I am so happy for you that you have put your demons to rest (drugs) and resolved your issues with your parents. They are the people you can always count on, and I pray that you never fall back to where you were. You are very genuine, and it shows through your writing. Great job portraying yourself in the text, it makes reading your work more enjoyable.
That's some real stuff Jen. It's good to feel bad for things you've done but remember not to dwell on it. Just do the best you can to make up for it. Parents are forgiving and you can't change the past so you gotta forgive yourself or it doesn't matter if your parents forgive you.<3
I agree with this i know exactly how you feel.I have treated my parents poorly for seventeen years till i got in foster care.Just keep your head up high parents will forgive you they were young once.
Ashley H.
oh my god!! wow! some people never realize that saying just one thing wrong can screw things up so much! at least you are willing to admit you were wrong and not wait to try to take things back until its too late. me i really do hate my folks. the made me mad. i hope it works out for you, i don't need you in my position. hold on tho this, i wish i had parents to love like that...
i think that you are a good writer and that you should keep it up!
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